Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in griffgal04's LiveJournal:

Thursday, April 8th, 2004
9:24 pm	*sighs* Stanley Cup Playoffs are starting, woohoo! Wings are 1-0 over the Predators already! Come on, we don't want a replay of last year's first round vs the not- so-Mighty Ducks, do we? And AHL playoffs start Wednesday..I asked a stupid question earlier, I asked if the Griffins played on Wednesday...no, because Wednesday starts the Qualifier round and the Griffins got the bye out of that round..so they won't start till the week after everyone else does. I'm hoping we do not play Chicago or Milwaukee during the semi's, and since Houston didn't even make the playoffs, I'm not worried about them...Toronto I wouldn't mind playing..I also wouldn't mind taking another road trip to Toronto during the playoffs, that was fun. I've just realized something...with the start of hockey playoffs, that means that graduation is getting nearer. I've been trying to avoid the subject, but I just got some shit in the mail the other day saying that Jostens is going to be at my school on the 26th with my graduation stuff...I'm scared of graduation..not scared of graduation itself, because I want to get the hell out of school and not worry about it anymore, but scared because I'm leaving behind the securities of all my friends and the bonds we've created over the years...hell, half of us have known each other since middle school! You know the saying We'll be friends forever? Is that really true? My mom has one best friend that she has known since her sophomore year of high school, but how can you really be sure that you will always be friends with these people? It's not that I'm scared of making new friends, because I make new friends every day...I'm scared of leaving behind all the things I know and love, my friends included, and never seeing them again. Most are going on to big-name colleges, Notre Dame, MSU, UofM, some are going to small-town universities, Calvin, GVSU, etc, then theres those who are going to GRCC, we'll still see each other often. But what about those that are going out of state, or out of city? That's what I'm scared of. I don't want to lose any of these people. Then there's the people at my school, those who I hang out with who are younger than me. There's Jessica, who's almost 19, but will only be a senior next year...I can still see her at church, but it won't be the same..Just like I can still see Sarah and Jon at church...but it won't be the same as seeing each other every day There's D'Anne, who's only a sophomore..God, the one thing I'm going to miss the most about her is our discussions on Anime. Inu Yasha, Ranma, you name it, we've probably had a discussion on it. And her drawings. I'm going to miss her drawing pictures of Miroku for me that I can hang up on my wall and stare at before I go to bed. And I'll miss her talking about Jay, her boyfriend, even though I've never met him. Lindsay, Jon, the twins Missy and Mandy...I'll miss em all when I leave that school..especially Sarah..she was one of the first people I met when I transfered to Park in the middle of the year. That's one reason why I don't want to graduate. I don't want to leave my friends, people I've known for years and people who I just met that have become like best friends to me. *sigh* "For every season, turn, turn, turn" right? With everything comes change, as bad as you might not want it. Guess I have to get used to it, graduation is in two months and I still need to pass Geometry in order to graduate! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 1st, 2004
8:49 pm	*sigh* Here's an update for anyone who actually reads this, which I'm honestly not sure if anyone does. Well, my day just went straight down the tubes to hell. Literally. It's how I feel right now. I'm on the verge of crying and I don't even know why. Seriously. I feel like I just wrecked this really good relationship between two people who really care and love each other, all because I couldn't keep my mouth shut. I hate it. I hate not thinking before I speak, I hate just blurting things out without even knowing what I'm saying. They keep telling me its not my fault, and I know it's probably not, but I still feel like it is. I still feel like if I had kept my mouth shut, none of this would be happening. Or at least, not this particular situation. I just want to jump into the third Harry Potter novel and grab Hermione's timeturner and go back in time and change what I've already done, what can't be undone. One of them is a really good friend of mine, I consider them one of my best friends. The other one I just met but this person is really sweet and caring and neither of them deserves for this to be happening to them. Not a very good start to Spring Break, I'll say. *sigh* Just IMed Marky. Apparently he doesn't want to IM me back, or he's ignoring me, like I've been doing to him. Why do I waste my time on him? My friends and family tell me that I could do so much and maybe I could. If only I could get him off my mind. Lately I've been thinking about him so much, about how I hurt him by breaking up with him so abruptly, not even two days after he left my house. He was just scaring me, you know? How are you supposed to react to a guy who goes from laughing and kidding to being dead serious? I've figured out I guess, that it wasn't him saying I Love You that bothered me, it was the fact that he kept talking about marriage and how after graduation his family was going to move me down to Ferndale, yadayadaya. That was what scared me. God, I hate being a teenager. Life is so fucking hard it's ridiculous. Why can't it just be easier? Why can't everyone just be the same sex, so then we wouldn't have to deal with this..well then, everyone would be gay, lol. Why can't life be like that Utopian novel we just read in Creative Writing, The Giver? Life would be so much easier if it could be like that, everyone would be the same, there would be no different races, granted, everything would be in black and white, but it would still be the same. Life would just be so much easier that way, even though I hated the novel...but life would so much fucking easier if we could all be like Jonas and Lily and the Giver and everyone else in that novel. Now i'm just blabbing. I really have nothing better to say except for how damn bad I feel right now. I really wish I could just go back in time and change everything, but it's impossible. This is teaching me not to get invovled in things like, I've done this before and it got me into trouble the last time. Maybe it's just telling me that I'm not the relationship type girl, that I should just hide in a hole like Victor Frankenstein and try to bring back to live prisioners that have died. Hey, it could happen. God, you can tell im pathetic when I can relate to novels that I absolutely despise! Well, I'm going to go now because I have nothing else to say and I'm sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself. More later, Cori (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
8:38 am	*blah* Here's more of an update that I just wrote. Why am I always so damn tired? It's ridiculous, I go to bed early (early for me is say, 11:30-midnight) and I still wake up and am tired the whole day the next day. And it doesn't help that I have to work tonight, I am not looking forward to that when I am this damn tired..but it's only three and a half hours....Mike is going to kick my ass, since I screwed him over on Sunday but oh well, let him. I'm about ready to quit the damn job anyway because it's taking up too much time for the schoolwork that I absolutely need to graduate...So I may take a hiatus or I just may quit...I'm getting sick of that job...but then if I quit, I have to rely on my mom and grandparents for money and I know they won't give me any, which sucks. So I should just keep the job, it'd be a lot easier. I'm wondering if I got any comments on xanga...Gina was supposed to comment on it, which she probably hasn't, and nobody ever reads those damn things anyway except for like Katy and that one new girl I just added to my friends list, the sabres fan (boo Sabres!) So...tired...must...stay...awake... *rolls eyes stupidly because there is nothing better to do* I should be going to Ms. Johnston for peer editing, but I want to wait to do that tomorrow just because, lol. I'm passing this class so I don't need to worry about failing(this class, anyway, I'm still working on geometry..ugh, I HATE MATH!!!) Here's an idea...how about schools just completely get rid of math? That way students don't have to deal with learning it and teachers don't have to deal with teaching ignorant students who don't want to learn what the square root of a triange or rhombus is! Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
8:21 am	*yawn* Might as well update, there's nothing better to do, I want to wait until tomorrow to peer edit in case there's anything else I need to get done on my paper, which I don't think there is. So what better to do than update on journals, eh? And since xanga is blocked, I can't check to see if I recieved any comments from last night. There's always GJ, though, which I highly doubt, nobody uses that anymore, it's all livejournal and xanga anymore, lol. Hmm, let's see, is there actually anything I can talk about on here? I don't think there really is....I'll update in fourth hour, something is bound to happen between here and fourth hour. Comment if you guys feel like it, these entries are always boring, I know, so sue me! Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
11:08 am	Grr! Grr, they blocked my xanga, makes me mad! Now I have nothing to do in 4th hour! And it's boring sitting here doing nothing-ladedaladedaladeda.....hi ho, hi ho, it's off to lala land I go...just kidding...but I AM bored out my mind..hungry too..that mardi gras stuff is starting to sound really tempting, I might buy me some instead of the usual....gtg, fix alert. Later, Court (Comment on this)
Monday, February 23rd, 2004
8:14 pm	Crimson Tears This is just a little poem I wrote, it's slightly morbid, so be warned before you read it! Crimson Tears Tears clouding her vision. Spilling down from her cheeks. Nowhere to go, nowhere to turn. No one to listen, no one to understand. What to do, where to go. The blood spills from her wrists, splashing on the floor, making big puddles of red. She grimaces in pain. Crimson tears fall from her cheeks. She lives in a world where she is damned, lives in a world where she is not accepted for who she is. Why must her life be this way? Shakily, she digs deeper into her wrist. "Goodbye Mommy, Goodbye Daddy." she whispers, tears spilling down her cheeks. Nobody misses her, Nobody sheds a tear. She is found curled up in the puddle of blood with one crimson tear working it's way down her cheek. Nobody cries crimson tears for her. yeah, I told you it was morbid, and i'm not about to go through the whole damn html coding here, it took me FOREVER to figure it out! (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 21st, 2004
11:18 pm	it's SATURDAY! I'm bored out of my mind, so what better to do than update my xanga! lol. Haven't updated my greatest journal in like, forever, I do that at school since Xanga has now been blocked...damn ass websense, blocking all the good sites! Mlive.com, google images(though we found a way around those but then we think they blocked advanced google images as well), which sucks, cuz I always went there when I was bored to find some cute Inuyasha pictures for D'Anne to draw me! Yeah. So anyway, you can tell I'm bored, lol. Griffins won tonight 2-1 (dejavu, lol) except tonight wasn't in OT, it was in regulation. Hugo and Jiri are injured now, let alone Nate and Darryl. Damn, how many injuries are we going to get? And so close to playoff time, too...We're starting to become the red wings rather than just their affiliate with all the injuries we get! We cannot afford all these injuries, the playoffs start in April and we need our guys back! Playoffs just reminded me of something..what are we going to do about our goaltender situation come playoff time? We need a third stringer, one of which we don't have anymore, unless we go back to splitting Myron Mulokte(cannot spell his name to save my life) with Muskegon seeing as how Chad Alban broke his contract with us or something, I don't know the whole story, but we also need a backup, unless we stick with Doug Teskey seeing as how Lamothe will not be back this season-unfortunately he has to clear waivers in order to come back to the minors and you know damn well if the wings put him on waivers, he will picked up in the snap of a finger. Anyway, lol. Got into an interesting discussion on the MNI(Mugglenet interactive boards, an interactive harry potter fourm thingy) about the gay marriage scandal...I joined a homosexual pride group just to see what it was about and offer my support even though I'm not gay, and this one person came on there just lambasting everyone, including me, about being homosexual and how it wasn't allowed and what not. She apparently did this while I was at work because I just read it a little while when I got home. So I posted a response up on there in response to Gina's post and then I owled the person and sort of went off on them for being so rude to the people on the group and offered my opinion, telling them to owl me back if they wanted to debate about it, I'm used to not having my opinion liked by others, my grandparents are about as homophobic as you can get(then again, they grew up in that generation where there were not as many, if any, homosexuals as there are now), so we are divided two different ways, my mom and I could care less(actually, I support gay marriage, she just could care less) and my grandparents are completely against it. It makes me somewhat afraid to even let them read my article for the Express because I do not want them to go off on me about being for it and have that spur into an hour debate like it always does, with my grandfather comparing gay marriages to the rise and fall of the roman empire(what the fuck does that have to do with anything, i'd like to know) and quoting the bible! I'm a religious person, but I do not need him to quote the bible all the time just because I do not agree with what he is saying, after all, it's a free country-or is it? I don't even know anymore. In other news. I am getting so sick of my job, I could scream. Don't get me wrong, I like it(thats a double negative seeing as how I just said I was getting sick of it, lol) and all, but at times it can be so exhausting! And if Mike does not start me on register soon, I am going to scream, I swear to you, I am! Mark, the guy who started AFTER I started, is already working register, and I've been there longer than him! Wtf! And tonight we had the district manager there who kept trying to hurry me along(sweeping the dining room, he kept telling me to hurry up, which I couldn't because people were still eating and everything.) Then Laura tells me, "You can't leave until those dishes are done" about an hour BEFORE I was supposed to leave...I don't mind doing the dishes, but I do them one more time and find leftovers from the MORNING in pans, I am going to tell Laura that that stuff is to be thrown out before I get to the dishes, I swear, they leave them all day, then when I get there, work for three hours, tell me that they have to be done before I leave! If you'd stop leaving food from the morning shifts on there, I could probably get them done in a hour or less, but instead I have to scrub, scrub, and scrub to get them off, then it takes me forever to do them and I get yelled at! Grr! I definately need to find a new job, something not having to do with food..anyone have any suggestions? On the bright side, I turned in Danielle's and Steph's applications the other day, so I hope Mike looks them over and considers them, it'd be cool to work with them! Course by that time,I'll probably still do be doing broiler and there will be no need to hire anyone because Heaven only knows when Mike is going to start me on that damn register! If I remember correctly, Ricky mentioned something to me about it last month sometime! (since I've only been working there since december) Then this semi-new guy (I say semi-new because he worked there 6 months ago, left, and came back) Cody, was taking over spec for me, even though I was supposed to be on it, so I had nothing to do until Joe(district manager) told me to go clean the dining room just to give me something to do. Which didn't really bother me I guess, because you can get a lot of thinking done while you are cleaning the dining room or doing dishes, so I guess those are my two favorite jobs at this moment. Anyway, Cody seems pretty cool, he asked me to guess how old he was, and when I said 25(cuz thats how old he looked) he told me he was only 19! Only a year and a half older than me! Then he was talking about going to the liquid room tonight and kind of laughed at me for being so, "sheltered" I guess you could say, because I've never been to parties or drank or anything...but its not because I don't want to, I'm never invited to parties, I guess people just think I'm that kind of person-either that, or they don't want to associate with me. Speaking of plays, my grandfather told me the funniest thing the other day-he told me I should have joined the theatre company! He told me that I would make a good actress, and I looked at him and laughed and said, "Yeah, right, the day I make it as an actress is the day the world goes to hell." I cannot act to save my life, I cannot act my way out a paper bag. Even though I did pass Drama last year, but I only joined it because Gina talked me into it! Though Jeremy did say I acted pretty well, but I have to disagree with him, no way in hell. *yawn* Okay, I'm going to call it quits. Reading back on this, this is the longest entry I've written on any of my journals, and I suppose I should do what I always do, copy and paste this up on GJ and LJ as well, lol. More later, Cori Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Friday, February 20th, 2004
11:35 am	hi..... Figured since everyone was signing up for this, I would as well. So hello everyone (Comment on this)